Not Writing a Screenplay Right Now, But How?

I have been straying away from my Jonathan L. project for some time now. I've needed a break from my screewriting. I've also needed to explore other genres. First thing was that I started writing was a horror story that I have been telling for years. This is actually old news, but I haven't written here since May 18th! I'm such a slacker! Anyway, I started a story a little while ago that was inspired by a Writersdigest.com forumite. I just suddenly got the idea to write down this story that I've had in my mind about how to get rid of my husband's body should I actually kill him. And of course, how to kill him.

It was going great. I was submitting sections of the story in 1000 word spurts. I originally thought that it would only be about 1000 words, but I am on Part 5 and every part has been +1000 words. But the best part is that I got a lot of good feed back by the critiquers in the forum.

Now for the worst parts: The story is extremely disturbing. Apparently not by those that are reading it on WD.com. It has been kinda difficult because the story contains a lot of nonfiction. There are a few things that didn't really happen, my husband's death being one of them. But the main characters being me and my ex husband, it makes it very difficult to seperate myself from the story and write it without letting my emotions and my stomache getting in the way.

The other problem is that I have been writing a screenplay for so long that I am having trouble writing from someones point of view. No first person, no getting inside of someones head. Even using past and future tense is becoming a challenge. One of the most important critiques that I recieved is that they want me to get into my main character's head. It's not only difficult for me to do that because it's not the kind of writing that I would do for a screenplay, it's difficult because that main character is me. And if you read it, you would be just as scared as I am to journey too deep inside of my head.

I wrote another "horror" short story for the Friday the 13th contest that has been extended for the second time to the 20th. It could be so much better if I could write it in first person from the main character's POV. But I no longer remember how to write like that. The story is already written, but I would like to rewrite it before I submit it because it could be so much better.

I think that what I will try to do is spend the good part of tomorrow reading short stories so that I can rewrite with a fresh understanding of how to write like that again.