Wanna Ride a Bike?

Today I was going through the notebooks on my bookshelf. I think that there were five. Each one contains the beginning of a story that I have not started. This does not include the notebook containing the script that I am currently working on. Let me tell you why this is a problem for me.
I have adult ADD. I have never been diagnosed, and I am sure that there are a lot of us out there who have it but have never been diagnosed. For various reasons I’m sure. Perhaps we are afraid of the stigma that comes with seeing a head doctor, or the possibility that it will be determined that some drug may be prescribed whose side affects outweigh its benefits. My reason is that I am hard headed and believe that since I know about it, I have some control over it. Well, there’s the conundrum. I know that I have it, I think that I have control over it, but in the back of my mind I know that I don’t have control. But, like I said, I’m hard headed and keep trying to convince myself I do.
Anyway, the reason that all of these notebooks are a problem is that in the front of my mind, the part that thinks that my ADD is under control, knows that I need to finish my current project before I try to complete anything else. But that little monster in the back of my mind, the one that knows better, keeps drawing my attention to the stories on the bookshelf.
So, maybe I don’t have to finish my script before I work on the other stories. The others would be so much easier to complete, and I could knock them out quickly. Then I could concentrate on the script, right? It’s a logical solution, but unfortunately, I my mind doesn’t work logically all of the time.
For instance, at the moment, I have several jobs. I am always changing my career ambitions. At the moment, I am a referring travel agent. It’s a work at home job. I have not given it the attention that I should. I am a substitute teacher for the public schools here. I love this job, but it is over during the summer. I have already gotten excited about what kind of work I could do during the summer. I am also a Navy reservist. Other work combinations that I have done are Real Estate Agent/Cabbie/Navy reservist, Navy reservist/call center. All of this while trying to write and go to the gym and raise 3 kids (not necessarily in that order!)
But through all of this work but not truly succeeding 100% in anything, I will see a commercial for a local vocational school and I still feel myself drawn to it, thinking that maybe I can go to that school in the summer and make that vocation my new job! It’s a thought that I have to fight.
Which is why I am saying that the idea of finishing off the stories on my bookshelf and then work on my script sounds like a great idea. But it will just delay the inevitable. Another story idea will come to mind and I will be right back into a similar situation. Maybe, even before I finish those other stories. And I will be no closer to finishing my script.
The script is roughly based on a book. A very famous book. It is not an adaptation. I wrote a very short version of this script about 4 years ago. Only about 14 pages. It needed a lot of things explained, such as the sudden science fiction in the end. Also, the reasons for the relationships between the characters was not clear. And at 14 pages, the script had plenty of room for explanation. In 2005 I started working on a back story. The third attempt at a back story was finally completed satisfactorily last month. I adapted this into screenplay. I am now working on a rewrite of the original script to coincide properly with the new back story. When that is complete I will work on making it into screenplay format. Hopefully it will be at least 90 pages. But so far I am not so sure.